Dear sweet Oliver,
Just like every night, I pulled down your favorite starry curtain, dressed you in your cozy jammies, and we sang our favorite lullaby. But tonight felt heavier, like I was carrying a mountain of emotions. The truth is, my darling, we are embarking on a change—a significant one.
As I close the door, this will be the last time I say, “I’ll see you in the morning,” sending you off to dreamland. This door has seen so many milestones: from your first night at home to our joyous Christmas mornings. It’s hard to believe that this is the last night you’ll be under the same roof with both me and Dad. It breaks my heart to say that we won’t be living together anymore, and I’m truly sorry for that.
When you called out for “Daddy” as I shut the door, my heart shattered, too. I’ve spent sleepless nights pondering how to explain this in a way that won’t fill you with worry. I want to convey to you that you are loved immensely by both parents, even if we are moving just a few blocks apart. I sometimes feel like a fake for saying this is the right choice when it feels so painful. Maybe I need to remind myself first that it’s okay.
It might seem like we’ve failed, and in some ways, we have. But when I look at the bigger picture, we haven’t—because you, my dear, are the light that binds us together. Please know that this decision was made out of love, for all of us to find happiness and respect. I refuse to let negative patterns dictate our lives and want to show you what true love looks like, rather than a facade just to keep up appearances.
You see, who we are as individuals shapes how we parent. I promise to strive to be the best version of myself for you. I want you to understand that the right choices aren’t always the easiest and that you should never settle for anything less than what honors your worth.
Goodnight, my sweet Oliver. May your dreams be filled with the wonder of childhood, whether you’re dreaming at Mom’s or Dad’s place. Love envelops you, no matter where you are.
In Summary
While Oliver’s parents are no longer living together, their love for him remains constant. They aim to show him that real love and happiness can sometimes mean making tough choices for the sake of family.
Keyphrase: parents living separately but loving child
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