From a young age, I recognized that patience was not my strongest suit. What I didn’t grasp was that my quick temper stemmed from underlying anxiety. It always felt like I was racing to the next task. Whether it was FOMO (fear of missing out) or my tendency to overthink while waiting for others, I often felt out of control, which only fueled my impatience and anger.
Becoming a parent introduced me to the monumental patience needed to calm a crying infant, navigate the nuances of breastfeeding, and tackle the myriad challenges that arise after childbirth. I found myself grappling with anger and resentment, but I couldn’t pinpoint the source. I had always been excited to become a parent.
“I need to relax,” I’d remind myself. My desire for children was so strong that I often approached mothers with strollers, eager to hear their stories. Perhaps that’s a bit of an exaggeration, but I genuinely felt a magnetic pull toward pregnant women and families. Occasionally, I would observe them, hoping their energy would inspire my own journey toward motherhood.
However, one afternoon as I nursed my youngest son—who seemed to take an eternity to drift off to sleep—I had a breakthrough. I realized that my frustration was directed at myself, which was hindering my ability to be the parent I aspired to be. I was upset with myself for possessing such a short fuse. Simple tasks, like teaching my kids to tie their shoes or eat an ice cream cone without creating a mess, became overwhelming sources of anxiety. I struggled to remain present in those moments.
It’s important to acknowledge that unless you’re a saint, maintaining patience with your kids (and yourself) is a challenge, particularly if you’re grappling with stress and anxiety. Our stress can lead to feelings of anxiety, which in turn can manifest as anger. Before you know it, you may find yourself hovering over your child, tying their shoes because you simply can’t bear to wait another second.
I’ve also experienced the aftermath of losing my temper. Even if I don’t go completely overboard—like when my child takes an eternity in a public restroom, where germs abound—I often face a guilt hangover for my lack of patience. I feel terrible for rushing them, speaking harshly, or shushing them when all they want is to express their love for “Paw Patrol.” In those moments, I can’t help but feel selfish for letting my emotions take control, even though I have the best intentions for my children.
Many parents can relate to this struggle. I’ve had days where I thought I might explode while watching my child try to zip up their jacket, and I’ve had to step away to regain my composure. We promise ourselves we’ll do better the next day, and while we genuinely try, some days we succeed, and others we falter.
But remember, this doesn’t make us bad parents. If you’re a short-fused parent, you’re not alone. We all have those moments where we lose our patience because, let’s face it, parenting is incredibly challenging. No one can deny that, and it’s natural to feel overwhelmed at times.
Eventually, our kids will come to understand. It may not happen until they have children of their own, but they will grasp the complexities of parenting one day. For now, they need us to give our best effort, love them fiercely, and acknowledge our humanity. Sometimes that humanity comes with a dash of agitation, and that’s perfectly acceptable.
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Summary:
Being a short-fused parent can be a challenging experience, often stemming from anxiety and the pressures of parenting. It’s common to struggle with patience, especially when dealing with the demands of young children. However, acknowledging these feelings and understanding that you’re not alone can help pave the way for personal growth and better parenting practices.