Tonight, as my son walked through the door after a long day at school, I sensed something was amiss. It was as if a silent alarm went off in my mind. Call it maternal instinct or perhaps just years of experience, but I could tell he was overwhelmed. After holding it together for almost seven hours, the moment he stepped into our home—a place of safety and comfort—the dam burst.
His anxiety poured out in every movement. His face flushed with color, and his body seemed rigid and tense. His words came out in a rapid-fire manner, both loud and erratic. He was caught in a whirlwind of emotions: hungry yet refusing food, eager to greet the dogs but too rough due to their excitement. Frustration boiled over as he lost control, and soon, the familiar chaos of a meltdown took over.
When I asked how he felt, it was as if a thick cloud enveloped him. He struggled to process my questions. As his sisters entered, laughing and chatting, they sounded like a crowd to him, amplifying his overwhelm. He shouted at them to quiet down, and just like that, the volcano erupted.
The aftermath is exhausting for both of us. He can’t reflect on his feelings because it’s all too much; he just needs to recharge, as do I. It’s challenging for our entire family, yet I can’t fathom the depth of his experience.
As his mother, I recognize that there were subtle signs throughout his school day. These were often overlooked as he appeared compliant. However, beneath the surface, his complexion likely paled as the hours drained his energy. He may have struggled with anxiety during lunch, possibly giggling nervously when approached by teachers. His head may have rested on the table during lessons, his body swaying back and forth to find calm. And as the school day drew to a close, signs of distress—like picking at his fingers or chewing on his sleeves—were likely present, yet unnoticed.
This struggle is common among children on the autism spectrum; many can mask their feelings all day, leaving teachers unaware of their internal battles. The pressure builds, creating a situation that strains families, especially when educators doubt what parents share. Imagine being a bottle of soda—filled with autism, sensory processing issues, ADHD, and a hidden speech delay. Every day presents a new challenge, shaking that bottle further.
The school day alone can feel like a series of shakes: a new topic introduced, confusion about instructions, painful classroom lights, or the pressure to sit still during assembly. Each small challenge adds to the pressure. When the day ends and the child arrives home, the lid finally comes off, leading to an emotional eruption.
I have often felt isolated and confused when teachers express surprise at my son’s behavior, stating, “We don’t see any of that here.” It has led to sleepless nights filled with self-doubt about my parenting. However, deep down, I know my child is struggling, and my instincts guide me. At home, he can truly be himself—safe and accepted.
This experience has led me to understand that we can take steps to alleviate the stress my son faces. By creating an environment that embraces his unique needs, we can help reduce the buildup of anxiety and cultivate a sense of safety and acceptance.
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In summary, recognizing the signs of stress in children can help families better support their needs. Understanding that home is often the place where they feel safest can help parents create environments that reduce anxiety and promote emotional well-being.