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For as long as I can remember, probably since I was a teenager, I’ve told myself that “one day” I would learn to play the violin. I imagined how my life might change, thinking that after my kids grew up, when I had more spare time, when I wasn’t so swamped with work, I would finally get a violin and start learning.
I tucked that thought away and waited for that elusive day.
Life carried on. I graduated high school, went to college, then to law school, got married, and worked hard at my job. I juggled parenting and my career as my children grew from toddlers into school-age kids, and then into teens. Still, that day never arrived.
I justified my inaction, convincing myself that it was just a fanciful idea. I didn’t have the time, anyway.
Recently, while visiting family, I asked my niece to show me a few notes on her violin. Her demonstration reignited my long-held desire to learn. “Maybe I’ll add it to my Christmas list,” I thought. After all, if it were a gift, I could rationalize the time and expense.
Then, during a session with my therapist, the topic resurfaced. I expressed my wish to play the violin but felt it was too trivial, too selfish. “Just do it,” she encouraged.
Later that day, I shared this conversation with my partner. While I hesitated, I did some quick online research and discovered a local shop renting violins for about the price of a couple of lattes. “Just do it,” he urged. “Go get one now.”
I listed all the reasons I shouldn’t—work obligations, lack of time, feeling indulgent—but he insisted. “You deserve this. Go now!”
With him grabbing my keys and guiding me out the door, I thought, “Am I actually doing this?” “Yes. And it’s great for you!” he replied.
Forty minutes later, I was home with a brand-new rented violin, despite not having a clue how to play and minimal free time to practice.
Yet, here I am… today is the day.
There were countless reasons to back out—too busy, too indulgent, lessons can be costly, it felt selfish, and so on. But I’m incredibly grateful for that chat with my therapist and for my partner pushing me to act before I changed my mind. Because today really is the day.
We parents, especially mothers, often prioritize everyone else’s needs over our own. “Someday” becomes our mantra. Someday we’ll write that book. Someday we’ll return to school. Someday we’ll take that art class.
But why can’t today be our day?
I’ve come to realize that there will never be a perfect moment. We’ll always find excuses to deem our desires as trivial or indulgent. Our kids will always need our attention, and while I hope they will for a while longer, we’re not getting any younger, and tomorrow is never guaranteed.
So whatever it is that you’ve been putting off, take the leap. It doesn’t have to unfold exactly as you envisioned. Maybe it takes a bit longer or looks a little different, but these pursuits are important. You are important.
I’ve had my violin for a week now, and just seeing its case on the table brings me joy. I don’t know how to play yet—though I’ve learned a few more notes than I had a week ago—and I haven’t magically found extra time to practice. But I love it and feel proud of myself for embracing this new challenge. Reflecting on my dreams of learning the violin, I realize that I have truly achieved something.
Today is the day.
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Summary
The author reflects on the importance of pursuing personal passions, sharing her journey to rent a violin after years of waiting for the right moment. Encouraged by a therapist and her partner, she embraces the idea that today can be the day to take action, despite the challenges of balancing family and personal desires.
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Learning to Play the Violin
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