Hello, my sweet child. How are you doing today? Oh, I can guess! You’re probably munching on some snack while watching your favorite show. Life must feel wonderful in your little world right now, and that makes me happy.
However, I need to share something important with you. Life isn’t always filled with joy and laughter. My days can often feel heavy, and it’s essential for you to understand why.
You see, I struggle with a mental health condition—something that impacts me daily. I know this may seem confusing because I don’t always show obvious signs of being unwell. I might look fine and sound normal, but not every illness is visible. Unlike a cold or a fever, my challenges are hidden, and they can’t be cured with a hug or a bowl of soup.
I am battling depression—a term you might have heard before. You might wonder, “What does that mean, Mom? Are you okay? Do you need medicine? Can we still play together?” The answers aren’t simple, and I appreciate your concern. Depression is complex, affecting both my body and mind. It’s not contagious; you can’t catch it like the flu, but it can be treated. With the right support, I have many good days where I feel like myself.
Yet, there are times when my depression overwhelms me. On those days, I might feel tired, irritable, or just sad. I may not want to engage in activities we typically enjoy, and I regret that. I know you crave my attention, and it pains me when I can’t give you my full self.
I want to apologize for the moments when I haven’t been fully present. Whether it’s skipped playdates or missed fun activities, I regret the times my depression has interfered with our time together. I’m sorry if my struggles have ever led you to feel unloved or neglected. That is the last thing I want.
I acknowledge how difficult it must be for you to see me like this, wondering if my mood is somehow related to you. Please know it’s not. My illness is mine to manage, and it has nothing to do with your worth or my love for you. I love you unconditionally, no matter what.
As I work to improve and be the mother you deserve, I hope you understand that there will be ups and downs. I’m actively seeking help and doing my best to manage my mental health. On days when I struggle, please remember that my feelings and challenges are not your responsibility—they’re not your fault.
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In summary, I want you to know that while I may struggle, my love for you remains constant. My depression is not your fault, and I will continue to work on being the best version of myself for you.