“She has issues with her mom,” you declared, dear former mother-in-law, as my son and I wrestled to safely get our distressed, screaming daughter out of her sister’s 8th birthday celebration. Another significant gathering I had to miss because someone needed to be there for her during these moments. You repeated, “She has issues with her mom,” rather emphatically (to my own mother, no less—how bold you were!), as we finally got her into the van, where I allowed my tears to flow in my own moment of despair.
You see, Linda (let’s call you Linda), it had been a trying few days. This meltdown was merely the visible part of the struggles we faced, which were exacerbated by the whirlwind of summer events. Just the night before, we had come home from a visit to a theme park that my three kids adore, where we experienced both joy and significant meltdowns. This is what we anticipate; it’s the nature of our reality. Sometimes we can minimize the triggers, and other times, they are unavoidable.
We make every effort to prepare her for unexpected changes, yet surprises still arise. We teach her coping strategies, but they don’t always work. While we want her to enjoy her childhood, it is often punctuated by episodes of overwhelming emotional turmoil. During these times, no one can control her reactions—not me, not anyone. She rides it out like a wild roller coaster, and we offer her the support she needs, doing our utmost to prevent such occurrences.
Your granddaughter has high-functioning autism, previously known as Asperger’s syndrome. To those unfamiliar with her, she can appear either completely “normal”—albeit with her unique quirks—or, when anxiety takes over, she can exhibit anger and frustration, often using her words as weapons. The fight-or-flight response she experiences can lead to impulsive actions like running, kicking, and screaming. What triggers these meltdowns can seem trivial to outsiders; at the amusement park, it was simply the absence of corndogs. But the real issue was likely overstimulation and sensory overload. While some might criticize our decision to take her there, I firmly believe it was worthwhile, as she enjoyed herself immensely before the meltdown occurred.
Such intense responses often elicit strong reactions from bystanders. While some may express concern—like the security personnel who stepped in during one of her episodes, showing understanding and support—others may judge harshly. They assume she is misbehaving and that I am either failing to discipline her or indulging her too much. They reduce a complex situation to a simplistic narrative, unwilling to acknowledge that they could ever experience similar challenges.
I have always tried to ensure her safety during these crises, feeling the weight of her pain and my own frustration, as well as the discomfort of her siblings affected by her behavior. The embarrassment of public meltdowns is hard to bear, and I often grapple with the judgment I imagine coming from others. I absorb it all because I love her, and she is worth every moment of strain. I don’t condone her behavior during these meltdowns, nor do I encourage it. I set boundaries and strive to teach her healthier coping mechanisms.
Am I a flawless mother? Absolutely not. But I put in my best effort. Since the refrigerator mother theory, autism mothers have been unfairly blamed for their children’s behavior. While society is more accepting and knowledgeable about autism now, the fear of judgment still lingers in the back of our minds, leading us to question our efforts.
I didn’t need your harsh words when I was already feeling defeated, Linda. Your comment didn’t help you bond with your granddaughter, nor did it alleviate your own feelings of inadequacy as a mother. It stung deeply and served no constructive purpose. I share this so I can release that hurt and continue striving to be the best mother possible.
Ultimately, the “problem with her mother” is simply that her mother can only love her; she can’t fundamentally change her. She cannot rescue her from her own fight-or-flight response; she can only provide support until the storm passes. In the chaos of a meltdown, logical reasoning, discipline, or even empathy often fall flat. The real work happens when she is calm, and we can discuss what happened, hoping that one day she will develop the self-control to manage her emotional spirals more effectively.
You chose to ignore this complexity, didn’t you? You reverted to a simplistic, binary viewpoint that is thankfully fading in our evolving society. You can choose to grow, to see the nuanced emotions at play, and respond with empathy. You can educate yourself about the brain chemistry involved in autistic meltdowns and understand the physiological responses at work. If you’re unsure, asking experts is always an option. Instead of casting blame, you could appreciate the unique gifts of your challenging yet brilliant granddaughter. And, of course, you can honor and respect “her mother”—the one who loves, supports, and strives to do her best every single day.
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In summary, understanding and supporting children with autism involves compassion rather than judgment. It requires acknowledging the complexities of their experiences and responding with empathy, rather than blame.
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