Parenting
By Lila Thompson
Originally Published: Jan. 26, 2016
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While one might assume my happiness stems from the numerous challenges in life, this is not the case. Rather, I have become highly sensitive to the little things that could potentially irk me.
I often find myself voicing complaints about my hectic schedule, my somewhat forgetful partner, my overly anxious siblings, or even an annoying ingrown toenail. In fact, I complain about anything and everything. However, in recent times, my complaints have diminished.
A few days ago, something remarkable occurred. I observed my eleven-month-old daughter, Emma, as she enthusiastically retrieved plastic fruits and vegetables from her toy kitchen. Meanwhile, my five-year-old twins, Mia and Ava, were busy at their easel, carefully picking up every crayon that fell to the floor. They even sang a catchy little tune I had devised: “If there’s a crayon/on the floor/Mia will find it/and put it in her mouth.” It was adorable. They sang as they worked, occasionally glancing at their baby sister with big smiles, exclaiming, “Isn’t that right, little Emma? You silly baby!” Emma laughed heartily, diving back into her playful mischief.
I sipped on a cold drink, taking a moment to breathe deeply and commit this beautiful scene to memory.
At Mia and Ava’s age, I had already envisioned myself as a mother. I dreamed of nurturing small children. As I matured, other ambitions emerged, yet the thought of motherhood remained a constant desire. I envisioned a bustling household filled with young girls, around three or four years old, engaging in dress-up, singing, and twirling in their lovely dresses.
I pictured older siblings caring for their younger ones, sharing hugs and kisses, and a general atmosphere of joy. And here I am, right in the middle of it all. I often find myself at the center of “hug piles,” receiving spontaneous, wet baby kisses. I am the perpetual overseer of the three happiest children I have ever known.
Yes, it can be chaotic. Some days, I just want to escape. There are moments when I feel overwhelmed, unable to mediate disputes over cheap plastic trinkets. But increasingly, I find myself simply watching my children play and feeling…joyful.
Not just joyful. It’s a deeper emotion—one of pride, accomplishment, and something beyond those feelings. I sometimes feel unworthy of the fulfillment that comes from merely observing my children at play. Yet, the joy is undeniable. Each time Emma takes a step instead of rolling, every time Mia declares herself “girl Superman” battling imaginary monsters, or when Ava “repairs” her toy sink using a hammer from her father’s costume, my heart swells.
Watching them play together, letting them just… exist as kids. It’s astounding. It’s enchanting. Seeing Emma mimic her older sisters and then catch my gaze with a bright smile… Motherhood has never been so rewarding.
Life may not be perfect. There are still significant issues we face—financial struggles, job uncertainties, health concerns. But overall? Life is extraordinary.
This is the essence of it all. This is why I chose to become a parent. Observing their sheer delight when their sunflower seeds sprout, when they read a new word, or when I walk into a room right when they need me.
I can’t fathom ever experiencing happiness greater than this moment. I have everything I’ve ever desired in life. I am surrounded by love—utterly, completely, and continuously.
It’s an incredible sensation to recognize that I am living in what will undoubtedly be the happiest time of my life. Regardless of what transpires in the future, my life will always be enriched by these moments—this enchanting, perfect phase of life.
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Summary:
In a heartfelt reflection, the author shares the profound joy and contentment found in motherhood, despite life’s ongoing challenges. Observing her children play and grow brings her immense pride and happiness, affirming that these moments represent the pinnacle of her life experiences. The piece emphasizes the beauty and fulfillment of nurturing and being present in her children’s lives, underscoring the magic of family.
Keyphrase: the pinnacle of my happiness
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