A year ago today, I found myself on this very couch with my partner, Jake, and the same psychologist who casually dropped the word “autism” like it was just another item on her grocery list. No tears. No fanfare. Just a clinical report of significant cognitive and language delays, coupled with the label of moderate to severe autism. My sweet child.
Wait, what? How did we end up here? That day felt like I was wading through a thick fog. The days and weeks that followed were challenging in a different way. I slowly came to terms with the fact that our family dynamic wouldn’t look like what I had envisioned. My experience as a mother wouldn’t follow the expected path. You, my dear, are not what I originally thought you would be. But let me tell you this: You are so much more. You are more than your diagnosis. You are more than I ever dreamed of. You are more than I hoped for. You are truly extraordinary.
To be honest, hearing your diagnosis was a relief, as odd as that may sound. It felt like a golden ticket to a new world of support. Your diagnosis paved the way for incredible therapies that have made such a difference in your life. Your therapists adore you, and it warms my heart to watch you sprint into their offices every week, eager to play and learn. Your eye contact has improved tremendously, and you even respond to your name most of the time. You’re picking up sign language and can say five words now—mom, dad, done, go, and tickle. Plus, you’re learning to use the potty and ride a scooter! You still cherish bath time, enjoy playing outside, love school, and have your wrestling matches with Jake. You also handle your little brother pretty well. He looks up to you, and it’s heartwarming to see him smile at you while we’re driving or swinging at the park. Have you noticed? You’re his hero.
In many ways, you are my hero too, my love. You’re showing me how to become the person I aspire to be. You’re teaching me about resilience, faith, and determination. I’m learning to advocate for what you need and what’s right, rather than being timid. You’re giving me the chance to trust in a higher plan, knowing that there’s something wonderful in store for your future.
Now, here we are again, one year later, on the same couch with the same psychologist discussing your autism and the results of your recent evaluation. But guess what? So much has changed since last year. You’ve grown immensely, and we’ve evolved as a family too. Jake and I are so proud of you and your dedication. Sure, these tests highlight the gaps between you and your peers, and we can address that later. Tonight, however, we’re going to celebrate your progress and all the little victories along the way. We’ll watch your favorite movie (Despicable Me), enjoy your favorite foods (waffles, apples, bacon, and tortilla chips), play outside, cuddle, laugh, and stay up past bedtime. Tonight is all about celebrating the amazing, wonderful, fantastic you.
You are my greatest adventure, my darling. I love you to the moon and back.
Love,
Mom
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In summary, this heartfelt reflection captures the journey of a mother navigating her child’s autism diagnosis, celebrating progress and resilience while embracing the unexpected.
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