I have one of those driver’s license photos that most women dream of—a snapshot taken just days after my blissful Hawaiian honeymoon. You can almost feel the coconut scent wafting off my sun-kissed skin. My eyes sparkle, having soaked in a week of breathtaking sunsets, and my smile is wide and warm, radiating the joy of new love. The winds of Waimea Canyon still dance through my hair, and my neck seems to stretch into a promising future filled with adventures yet to come. I distinctly recall dressing for the DMV, fumbling with a belt because my favorite jeans were too baggy—how inconvenient.
Fast-forward five years, and I’m now navigating an airport security line, hunched over with a car-seat carrier that feels like a small shed strapped to my back. One hand drags a wobbly suitcase while the other clutches my small son, who’s kneeling on the floor, groaning in dissatisfaction. A large bag stuffed with snacks, crayons, and airplane toys swings across my middle like an udder. And the bags under my eyes? Let’s just say they’re more than a little noticeable. I suspect my shirt has ridden up above my midriff, but at this point, there’s not a lot I can do about it.
It was a challenging trip. I was flying solo with my 3-year-old, visiting friends in New York. Somewhere between Milwaukee and Detroit, my son had a complete meltdown—ah yes, the infamous Terrible Threes. It all peaked on American Airlines Flight 312. After three days filled with tears, sleepless nights, and sheer desperation, all I craved was to go home.
As we approached the TSA agent, a flicker of relief washed over me; we were almost through. I handed over two crumpled boarding passes along with my shiny driver’s license. He glanced down at the photo, then back at me, squinting as if trying to solve a puzzle. His pen hovered over our boarding passes for what felt like an eternity before he finally scribbled something indecipherable. “Close enough,” he declared.
“Close enough?!” I exclaimed, snatching the tickets back with a flair of indignation that I can only assume was justified. I flicked my hair in a dramatic fashion, wishing it would sweep across his face.
We managed to board our final flight without further incident. Once on the plane, my son seemed content, scribbling in his coloring books while I stared at my driver’s license again. That carefree, radiant version of me grinned back, but I couldn’t help but wonder—did I really look that different? Sure, the years of sleepless nights had left their mark. My hair was shorter, my skin paler, and my face rounder. But the real difference was more profound. The woman in that picture radiated genuine happiness, a glow that seemed to come from within (and maybe from a few mai tais). The day at Buffalo airport, however, was anything but joyful, and it showed.
My gaze shifted to my son, who was now happily coloring. What does he see when he looks at me? I may never set foot in Hawaii again, and sure, there will be many tough days ahead, but I refuse to let anyone mistake me for someone I’m not. I still have much to be grateful for, plenty of inner sparkle left, and a ridiculously expensive eye cream to help with my appearance.
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In summary, while I may not be the same woman I once was, I embrace the changes that come with motherhood, ready to face whatever comes next with my little one by my side.
Keyphrase: The woman I’ve become
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