I want to express my heartfelt apologies for having to work so much. It pains me to tuck you into bed early after a long day, drained and exhausted. When you’re feeling unwell, my first thought often turns to whether I can take a day off. I regret that, during those sick days, I may not be the one to comfort you at home. It hurts that I miss out on asking about your dreams in the morning, while I’m stuck at work wishing I could be with you instead.
I’m sorry that I share my lunch breaks with colleagues over peanut butter and jelly sandwiches instead of at our kitchen table. When your caregiver tells you that “Mommy will be home soon,” you have no idea how desperately I wish that “soon” was “now.” I find myself discussing budgets and policies with adults, while I crave conversations about butterflies and princess tea parties with you. Instead of racing toy cars across the kitchen floor, I’m ironing work attire.
Work often follows me home, making me feel like I’m staring at my computer screen more than gazing into your beautiful eyes. I know I disappoint you when I say, “Just one more thing for work,” instead of joining you for hide-and-seek. Rainy days don’t allow us to sleep in, and weekends fly by too quickly, leaving little time for the moments that matter. Most of the dinners I prepare during the week are rushed, taking only 25 minutes or less.
I feel the weight of guilt when I see other kids having their moms drop them off at school, while my Pinterest board is filled with crafts I know we’ll never have time to tackle. It saddens me that I may not witness your first milestones, and I regret having to negotiate with Dad about who takes you to the doctor’s appointments. When I have to “heal” your boo-boo over FaceTime rather than with a kiss, it breaks my heart.
I often wish I had chosen a career with fewer hours and more financial security. I’m sorry for not being there when you need me most. Yet, amidst my sorrow, I’m also thankful. Thankful that you understand why I need to work and that you appreciate the life it provides. Even when it feels like we’re just passing ships in the night, I’m grateful you still call me your best friend. Most importantly, when I squeeze your hand a little too tightly on the way to the car, you grip mine back just as firmly.
I work hard to give you the opportunities I didn’t have, like family vacations and a college fund. I want to provide you with everything that makes life special, including new dress-up clothes and tea sets. I promise I’m away to make your life better, but the guilt can be overwhelming. I didn’t realize how much my heart would swell with love when I’m with you and how it would ache in your absence.
So, my dear ones, I’m sorry for the time I spend at work, but I hope you know it’s all for you. If you’re curious about starting your own family journey, check out our post on the BabyMaker at Home Insemination Kit for helpful insights. Additionally, if you want to learn more about pregnancy, the CDC offers great resources for those interested in home insemination.
In summary, while I may be absent physically, my love and intentions are always present. I’m striving to build a future for you, and I hope that one day you’ll understand the sacrifices I’ve made for our family.
Keyphrase: Apologies for Working Parents
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