Not too long ago, I found myself engulfed in a wave of self-pity after an excruciating day of swimsuit shopping. Before becoming a mom, I could simply grab my size without a second thought—I was always a small. Fast forward to today, and there I was, standing outside the dressing room with a hodgepodge of sizes, devoid of confidence and sweating as if I were attempting to sneak contraband across a border.
The transformation of my body didn’t happen overnight. It took nine long months to nurture a tiny human, so why did I expect everything to snap back to “normal” immediately after childbirth? I suspect those perfectly toned celebrity moms on magazine covers had something to do with my unrealistic expectations. The truth is, reclaiming a healthy body takes time and effort, and while I often find myself cringing at my reflection, there are small victories—like having moments when I don’t actively despise my stomach. That’s progress, right?
As an American, I tend to deflect my frustration onto society. Isn’t it curious that women are only encouraged to embrace their curves during pregnancy? Once I transitioned past the “food baby” stage of pregnancy, I was thrilled to wear snug clothing without constantly adjusting. Now, however, you’ll likely find me avoiding all tight attire unless absolutely necessary, which often leads to me dodging the UPS delivery guy while wearing a regrettable ensemble of sweatpants.
With summer on the horizon, I knew I had to muster the courage for round two of swimsuit shopping. I wasn’t quite ready to settle for the traditional black one-piece, yet I clearly didn’t fit the target audience for Target’s neon, tribal print bikinis either. So, I wandered through the aisles, seeking something that struck a balance between sensible and stylish. After selecting a few options, I headed to the fitting room, only to be confronted by what felt like a fun house mirror. Surely, that can’t be my cellulite staring back at me?
Just when I thought I had experienced the most mortifying moment of my life—let’s not even talk about the time I had a sneezing and farting incident during my OB-GYN visit—the universe decided to up the ante. Pulling the swimsuit bottoms on felt like a wrestling match. I could barely tug them past my thighs without feeling like my circulation was being cut off. But pride has a way of overshadowing discomfort, so I continued shimmying until they were on. Let me tell you, the fabric felt like it was slicing into me like twine on a holiday roast. This warranted a serious binge of Haagen Dazs—at the very least.
In the end, I chose a swimsuit that resembled a beige loafer, complete with the charm of Dr. Scholl’s inserts—it got the job done but didn’t exactly scream fashionista. At least I opted for a two-piece, which made me feel a touch like a daring feminist. I had successfully avoided wearing a muu muu to any swim-related events, and that felt like an accomplishment. Perhaps next summer, I’ll find the courage to stop cropping myself out of family beach photos. Who knows?
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Summary: This article humorously explores the struggles of swimsuit shopping post-pregnancy, touching on societal pressures, personal reflections, and the journey towards body acceptance while also providing resources for those interested in family planning.
Keyphrase: Love/Hate Relationship with Swimsuit Season
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