Dear my beloved children,
I want to take a moment to express my love for each of you. It is profound and just as strong as the affection I hold for your younger brother, Lucas, who has unique needs that demand much of my time and attention. It’s heartwarming to see the bond you share with him. The love you all have for one another is evident, and it brings joy to my heart to witness the way he thrives on your cuddles, shared treats, and playful moments. Even though he doesn’t articulate his feelings, his laughter and sparkling eyes behind his glasses reveal how much he enjoys your company.
I understand that my attention can sometimes feel limited, and I recognize that it can be frustrating. I often find myself repeating phrases like, “I need to attend to Lucas right now,” or “I can’t go out; I have to stay home with Lucas.” As someone who used to relish outdoor adventures and thrilling slides, I sometimes feel like a different person. These days, I often feel burdened by the challenges of caring for a nearly 3-year-old who cannot express his needs verbally and who has a knack for running away— and, trust me, he is quick!
I am striving to balance my time among all of you. Can you see my efforts? Sometimes it’s not just about Lucas. I have my moments of wanting to connect with my friends at the pool instead of observing yet another headstand. I’m that mom, too, but I also recognize that you each need my presence.
When your father is away, I make a point to share my bed with one of you, lying down together and enjoying simple conversations. I truly listen when you ask why we haven’t gone out for dinner more often. Did you know we’ve managed to go out twice recently? That was intentional for you. I arranged for a babysitter so we could build sandcastles and enjoy the ocean together. I want to reconnect with the adventurous mom you first knew.
Motherhood is a complex journey, and I am doing my best. I want you to know that my love for you is limitless, and I long to be present for you—holding your hands, smoothing your hair, applying sunscreen, and sharing warm embraces.
Please take a moment to appreciate my efforts and feel free to voice your needs when it seems I’m distant. I know I’m not perfect, and at times I can be a bit selfish with my time, but I promise to continue striving for balance. Lucas is just one part of our family, while you three are the ones who have shaped my experience of motherhood.
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Summary
In this heartfelt letter, a parent of a child with special needs expresses love and acknowledges the challenges of balancing attention among all children. The message emphasizes the importance of communication and the desire to reconnect with each child, recognizing their individual needs while navigating the complexities of motherhood.
Keyphrase: Message to My Other Children
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