When I welcomed my first child, Lily Rose, into the world in 2018, I was filled with anticipation about breastfeeding. I envisioned myself confidently feeding her anywhere, much like the moms I’d seen in pictures. However, as I began this journey, I quickly encountered unexpected challenges.
In the hospital, we faced typical latching issues, but what I didn’t realize was that something deeper was affecting me. Each time my milk let down, I experienced a wave of dread that felt overwhelming. It was as if my mind was plagued by a storm of negative thoughts. The tension in my abdomen, still sore from my C-section, made the experience even more uncomfortable, leading me to believe that the pain was simply due to breastfeeding challenges.
I tried to push through the discomfort and the emotional turmoil, but my body’s response was intense. Each breastfeeding session left me feeling nauseous and on edge for about 10 to 15 minutes, which hindered my recovery from surgery. After a month of enduring this, I decided to switch to exclusively pumping. Unfortunately, that only alleviated the physical pain; the dark feelings and sense of doom returned each time I began pumping milk.
After providing Lily with breast milk for six months, I recognized that weaning her was the best choice for my well-being and our family.
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As I reflect on my experience, I realize how vital it is to share these stories. You’re not alone if you feel overwhelmed or if breastfeeding isn’t what you expected. There are communities out there, like the one found on Facebook, that can provide support and understanding.
In conclusion, breastfeeding with D-MER was a challenging chapter in my motherhood journey, but I learned that it’s okay to seek alternatives that work for your family.