To My Partner, Alex:
What an incredible year it has been. We began this journey filled with anticipation and dreams, and as we look back, our hearts are brimming with gratitude and appreciation. Our daughter, Lily, is not merely an extension of us; she is truly a precious gift that you have given me.
I recall people telling me that once she was born, I would experience a love like no other. I was skeptical, thinking I already understood true love. In some ways, I was correct. Despite the arguments, heartaches, and challenges we faced this past year, we emerged resilient because what we share is genuine love. It is unconditional, forgiving, and nurturing. It envelops us, even on our most difficult days.
I often find it hard to express my admiration for you as a father. Many aspects of your personality have shone through this year—traits I never realized you possessed. Your tenderness, humor, and creativity when interacting with Lily leave me in awe, and I have never witnessed such deep love and concern in your eyes for anyone else. Your adoration for her is unmistakable.
I apologize for the many times I’ve interrupted or directed you. It’s not that I doubt your parenting abilities; it’s simply that a mother’s mind is often clouded with worry and second-guessing.
This year has surprised me in many ways. I always believed I would be a fantastic mother (maybe a bit boastful?), but I never imagined I would transform into the parent I have become. From the moment Lily was in my womb, something shifted within me. My focus has become solely on her happiness, comfort, and safety. The weight of responsibility is ever-present, and it consumes me, even during moments when I wish it wouldn’t.
I am constantly reminded that I am tasked with shaping this little person’s life. There are countless instances when I gaze at her and think, “This is real. She is here. She belongs to us. And she is not going anywhere.” It’s a surreal experience.
From the two of us to the three of us, even though I carried her for nine months, I still find myself pinching my arm to believe it. I never anticipated that there would be nights we wouldn’t share a kiss, and somehow, that’s become acceptable. It shouldn’t be, yet our lives haven’t crumbled.
As this year concludes, I reflect on the numerous nights we’ve spent apart. It reminds me of those two years when we were separated, one of which was spent on opposite sides of the globe. It feels like the phase of discovery and adaptation we navigated has returned, but this time, it’s so much better. We are united, happy, and we now share our love with another person—the one we created together. I have so much to be thankful for.
Our passion remains alive, albeit expressed differently now. I cherish it more than I ever did before. With the year coming to a close, I feel a deeper connection with you. We have become a stronger team. Despite occasional tensions, the love and respect we share run deeper than ever. My appreciation for you and all that you do for Lily, for me, and for our family has grown immensely.
Every time I see you with our baby, I realize how fortunate she is to have you as her dad. And how lucky I am to be part of this journey. These early years will pass quicker than we can imagine. While it may seem that the couple who cherished their time together has vanished, I know that we will always remain.
I love you deeply, and I know you understand just how much.
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In summary, this past year has been a transformative experience filled with challenges and love. Our bond has deepened, and our roles as parents have enriched our lives in ways we could never have imagined.
Keyphrase: reflections on first year as parents
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