Updated: Oct. 9, 2023
Originally Published: May 6, 2023
Trigger Warning: Child loss
Today, my family and I shared a meal in an unexpected place—a cemetery. It may sound unusual, but for us, it was a meaningful way to connect with our loved one who is no longer with us. My daughter, who passed away at just four months, has been resting here for over a year and a half. As her second birthday approaches, the emotional weight of her absence is particularly intense, and I felt an urge to be near her.
I packed up the little ones, grabbed some blankets, and made a quick stop at our favorite fast-food joint. I wasn’t about to prepare a meal that would go cold—let’s just say I had my reasons! Usually, my kids are quiet during the drive, but today was different. As we pulled up, my son exclaimed, “Look, Mommy! There’s Ellie!” My heart swelled with affection. “Yes, sweetheart, that’s her.”
Our day didn’t unfold like a typical outing. We laughed, played, and enjoyed ourselves amid the headstones. The toddlers practiced their cartwheels and shared stories, their laughter echoing through the serene space. While some may find it strange to have lunch surrounded by gravestones, I find it far more unnatural to have buried my child.
Despite the setting, it felt just right. After days of gloomy weather, the sun broke through the clouds, and the nearby wind chimes created a beautiful melody. We found a slice of joy today, a reminder that happiness can exist even in unexpected places.
I choose to embrace these moments of joy, no matter how unconventional they may seem. Our family has faced enough heartache that we must cherish the good days when they come. For those interested in further exploring fertility options, including at-home insemination, check out this helpful resource on artificial insemination. You can also read more about the process at Modern Family Blog, which is an authority on these topics. Additionally, for those seeking excellent information on pregnancy and home insemination, the Johns Hopkins Fertility Center is a great resource.
In summary, while sharing a meal in a cemetery may seem unconventional, it served as a poignant reminder of our loved one, allowing us to grieve and celebrate in our own way.