As my eldest child approaches kindergarten in a little over a year, I find myself overwhelmed with anxiety. This shouldn’t be such a struggle, especially for someone like me—a former kindergarten teacher. Yet, the thought of sending my child to public school fills me with dread.
The current state of our educational system does little to ease my concerns. Schools, which should be sanctuaries for our children, have become the backdrop for unimaginable tragedies. The idea that a place meant for learning can morph into a site of violence is frightening.
Unfortunately, this isn’t the only issue at hand. Public schools are falling short in providing the quality education our children deserve. While I hold immense respect for teachers—who are often overworked and underappreciated—they face significant constraints imposed by the system.
My daughter, for instance, is academically ahead for her age. She is eager to learn and is already on the path to reading before she even steps into a kindergarten classroom. I should be thrilled by her progress, but I am not, as I know the reality of public education. If she’s fortunate, she might have a teacher who goes above and beyond to challenge her academically. However, these dedicated educators often lack the time and resources to cater to advanced students. The focus tends to be on those who struggle, which is entirely understandable, but it leaves bright learners like my daughter without the attention they need.
In a system where class sizes can be unmanageable, the lack of individual support is glaring. If my daughter were a struggling student, she would likely receive more focused attention. But with so many competing needs, teachers can only do so much. This reality diminishes the quality of education for students who are ready to thrive.
It pains me to consider not sending my daughter to public school, knowing that parents like me may inadvertently contribute to the system’s decline. As we withdraw our children for homeschooling or private education, we further drain resources from an already beleaguered system, leaving behind those who cannot escape.
I may one day return to teaching in a public school myself, and I hope to have a supportive principal who allows me to stay late while my daughters are there. The prospect of balancing my responsibilities as a mother and a teacher is daunting. I’ll often find myself weighed down by stress and migraine headaches, torn between my commitment to my students and the time I wish to spend with my children. While I love teaching, the constraints of the system can be suffocating.
For now, I have a year to ponder this decision and will likely put it off until the last possible moment, all while feeling the pressure of knowing that children will be the ones to suffer, regardless of the choice I make. It’s a daunting dilemma.
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