I understand how deeply exhausting and heartbreaking this experience can be. You may feel a profound sense of loss, as if this was your baby in every way that matters. Yet, amidst your grief, you may also be caring for living children, which complicates your emotions. You know that losing a pregnancy doesn’t equate to losing a child, but the pain is still real and often overwhelming.
Miscarriage is more common than we realize. Research suggests that nearly half of all pregnancies may end before they are even confirmed. One in four women has faced the same heartache you’re experiencing now.
Many of us share the sorrow of mourning a child that never had the chance to be. However, society often pressures us to move on quickly. We hear phrases like, “At least it happened early,” and feel as though we should be thankful for our living children, as if that somehow negates our grief. The opinions of others on how long you should grieve can be unhelpful; some mean well, while others simply lack sensitivity. Regardless of their intentions, it’s essential to remember that your feelings are valid and deserve to be acknowledged.
I experienced a miscarriage early in my marriage before going on to have two wonderful boys. However, in November, I learned at eight weeks that my fourth pregnancy ended in loss. My body didn’t recognize the baby was gone, and after three weeks of uncertainty, we opted for a D&C just before Christmas. Genetic testing confirmed that our child was a girl.
If she had continued to grow, she would have had a nursery in our new home. I envisioned teaching my toddler her name while my eldest would learn to spell it. The thought of juggling the chaos of having a newborn, a toddler, and a kindergartener filled me with both excitement and anxiety. Yet, I longed for that chaos. Most days, I manage my grief, and I assure you, you will too.
Yet, some days the sorrow swells like a tidal wave, and I let it wash over me. Unlike the ocean, this grief cannot drown me, even if it takes my breath away momentarily. Remember, you have living children. As you navigate this journey, hold onto the fact that you aren’t alone. There’s a vast sisterhood of women who carry memories of babies nobody else remembers.
I’m grateful for my children every day. As I write, I hold my sleeping toddler, breathing in his presence and silently thanking the universe for the joy he brings. I’ve spent countless nights lying next to my five-year-old, cherishing his curious thoughts and vibrant spirit. My love for them began long before their first cries or tiny faces emerged; it started when I first saw those two pink lines.
In the future, I may be an old woman, possibly with another child, but I’ll carry with me the laughter and gratitude for the life I’ve lived. I will also feel the sadness for the children I never met. That sorrow is a part of my journey, and it doesn’t diminish my love for my living children.
You don’t have control over how a miscarriage impacts your heart. Some may not feel that connection to the loss, and that’s completely okay. We all navigate this differently. If you find that this loss becomes a part of your story, it’s not your obligation to simply “get over it.” Carry it if you need to, and know that as you grow stronger, it will weigh less. There’s no shame in letting memories fade if it becomes too painful to hold onto them.
If you’re feeling as though something is missing, know that you are part of a strong community of women who understand this pain. Together, we can find solace in our shared experiences. You are not alone in this journey, and we stand with you.
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In conclusion, while the journey through miscarriage is deeply personal and challenging, it is also one that connects us to a community of understanding and support. You don’t have to navigate this alone; we are here with you, holding space for your grief and your joy.
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