It doesn’t matter when I show up. Whether I’ve just shared a laugh with a close friend or exchanged pleasantries with someone I’ve barely met, it makes no difference to me. I could be surrounded by a crowd at the best viewing spot or standing in the middle of a championship game, but I still prefer to sit alone.
I’m not anti-social; in fact, I am quite the opposite! I enjoy chatting with fellow parents and cheering for all the kids on the field. I’m happy to wave hello and engage in light conversation. However, when the whistle blows and it’s game time, I choose solitude.
The days seem long, but these years are fleeting. I can vividly recall the weekends filled with back-to-back games, and now, I often wish for those chaotic days again—when our vehicle was a mobile locker room, replete with damp uniforms, snacks, and water bottles. Now that my kids drive themselves to their activities, my presence at every game remains steadfast, even if I miss those early mornings of packing blankets and snacks for a full day at the field.
I opt to sit alone because I don’t want my child to see me laughing with another parent or distracted by my phone instead of fully engaged in the game. I want to capture every moment when they’re at bat, ready to take videos to review later with their dad, discussing what went well and what didn’t. Hearing “Thanks for filming my hit, Mom” is what brings me joy.
I refuse to let myself get sidetracked by conversations about playing time, coaching styles, or school gossip. I acknowledge that I am guilty of indulging in these sideline debates, but I’ve realized that I would much rather focus on my child and the game itself.
I sit alone so that one day, my kids will look back and remember how I was present for almost every game, soaking in the details and experiences we could later share. If they want to discuss a tough opponent or a questionable call by the referee, I want to be able to say, “I saw that too,” or even show them the video we can watch together.
This is my choice, and it brings me happiness.
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In summary, my decision to remain quiet during my child’s games stems from a desire to fully engage in the experience without distractions. It’s about cherishing those moments and ensuring that my kids know I am there for them, both in spirit and in presence.