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“Did you know that when Dad and I tie the knot, I’ll be your step-mom?”
I caught the basketball he tossed my way, nestled it against my stomach, and bent down to meet his gaze, curious about his reaction. At just seven years old, I wondered how much my soon-to-be-stepson understood. He had been playing wedding games with his toys and seemed excited about the idea, but with shy kids, it can be hard to gauge their feelings.
“Actually, you’ll be my only mum,” he responded softly.
I had never envisioned myself as a mother to boys. Before having children, I prayed for daughters. It wasn’t that I would have been disappointed with a son; I just felt unprepared. I’m not particularly energetic, and the little boys I knew were loud, active, and chaotic. I often worried about how I would manage. Would I constantly be sending them outside or reprimanding them? I imagined myself in a corner, surrounded by broken furniture and muddy clothes. I knew my thoughts were irrational, but I couldn’t shake them. Having grown up with sisters, I was more familiar with girls. Eventually, I had two daughters, which relieved me.
When I began dating my partner a couple of years ago, I learned he had a young son, which made me anxious. We decided to keep our relationship under wraps from his son at first, wanting to ensure it was serious before involving the kids. Still, I sensed the little guy was picking up on something. He would glance at me with a curious look, as if trying to figure out why this unfamiliar woman kept appearing around him and his dad. I tried to give them space for some father-son bonding while I adjusted to the idea of possibly having a stepson. However, the more time we spent together, the more I wanted to win him over. I started to question whether raising boys was as daunting as I once thought, though I still felt lost.
My stepson turned out to be the introspective, quiet type rather than the boisterous child I had feared. He tends to be reserved around most people, even family members, so when he finally opened up to me, it felt like a privilege. One day at the pool, while my partner and his son were engaged in playful splashing, my stepson swam over to me, wrapped his small arms around my neck, and whispered, “Let’s push Dad under! Don’t tell him!” He looked at me and giggled with glee. My heart melted. He was making me his partner in crime. Later that day, when I shared the moment with my partner, he smiled broadly and said, “He’s finally accepting you!” After a few months, my stepson had decided I was okay after all.
I often think about whether my stepson was cautious around me because I represented a mother figure. His biological mother transitioned to a man when he was quite young, and he doesn’t remember life being any different. To him, I might just be the only maternal figure he knows. My partner usually receives the Mother’s Day cards and crafts from school. Interestingly, last year, none were sent home, possibly because they recognized that Mother’s and Father’s Days can be tricky for some children.
When my stepson said, “You’ll be my only mum,” it struck a chord. I have no idea what it means to be a mother to a boy, but he has no frame of reference either. His perceptions of motherhood come from movies, TV, and friends’ moms (whom I haven’t had the chance to meet). Often, mothers in films are problematic. My daughters and I have even joked that mothers seem to die early on in movies. “Wait,” we quip, “the mother’s going to die.” It’s become a running joke, especially when my youngest, as a preschooler, asked, “When are you going to die, mummy?” She thought dying young was a norm for all mothers. At least in films, mothers are depicted as loving and kind. If my stepson has seen movies featuring stepmoms, he might have a very different, and often negative, impression of motherhood.
A few months ago, after two years of dating, my partner and I got married. My stepson was quite excited, albeit in his understated way. I’ve learned to pick up on his subtle cues, and I could tell he was thrilled with his new black “grown-up” shoes that matched his dad’s, and he felt important holding the rings during the ceremony. We had decided to include just our children in the ceremony: my daughters served as bridesmaids and flower girls while my partner’s son stood proudly beside him, looking dapper in his pinstriped vest and navy tie.
After the ceremony, amidst the chatter and chocolate wedding cake, I found my stepson sitting quietly by himself at the front. “You’re my son now,” I said with a smile. “My only son.” He nodded in agreement.
“What does a stepmom do?” I asked playfully, pulling a silly face. “Do I have to kick you on the butt and wipe boogers on you?” (He loves that kind of humor!) He giggled and shook his head. “No! I do that to you!”
“No way!” I laughed, sitting beside him. “What do only sons do? Do they make Mother’s Day cards?”
“I don’t know,” he replied.
“Neither do I,” I said, and we sat in silence, gazing at the stage.
Three weeks after our wedding, we were having dinner together when my stepson said, “Oh yeah, I should start calling you by your new name.”
“What name?” I asked, expecting something amusing.
“Mum, of course,” he said.
I guess we will discover together what that means for both of us.
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Summary
Navigating the role of a stepmom can be challenging, especially when the child views you as a mother figure for the first time. This heartfelt narrative explores the bond formed between a stepmom and her stepson, showcasing the unique dynamics of parenting in blended families. Through playful moments and deep reflections, the story reveals how love and acceptance can flourish, even amidst uncertainties.
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