Due to a prolonged mental health struggle that left me disoriented and impaired for more than two years, I made the heart-wrenching yet ultimately selfless choice to relinquish custody of my children.
What Does This Entail?
For a long time, I wrestled with that question. Who am I if I’m not primarily identified as their mother? Their father has taken on the role of their main caregiver; he is their legal guardian and their constant support. For me, this arrangement has been emotionally overwhelming, but it was a necessary step.
This means I miss out on the simple yet cherished moments like bath time or reading bedtime stories. I don’t have the opportunity to choose their outfits or be the first to hear their latest thoughts and discoveries. I was absent for significant milestones, such as the first time my daughter used the potty or when my son started learning about our faith. I don’t get to celebrate every holiday with them.
Finding Joy in Motherhood
However, when I reflect on the most rewarding aspects of motherhood, they still exist. I continue to receive the warmest hugs and hear the sweetest “I love yous.” There are still moments of laughter, fun activities, and baking cookies together. I share in the excitement of taking my daughter to get her ears pierced and attending school events. I cherish the joy on their faces when we reunite and the heartfelt goodbyes when we part. Even the occasional tantrum reminds me I still have a role to play in their lives.
I focus on what I can experience, treasuring each moment I have with them. I eagerly anticipate their future and all the milestones yet to come. Motherhood remains an irreplaceable experience for me. My time with them is now even more special, as I strive to present the healthiest version of myself.
Redefining Motherhood
Not having custody of my children means only as much as I choose to make of it. Ultimately, it allows me to savor every single moment and redefine what being a mother truly means to me. And that definition means everything.
Resources for Family Planning
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Conclusion
In summary, while my situation may seem limiting, it has allowed me to create a unique and cherished relationship with my children that I deeply value.
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