First off, let’s just get this out of the way: colic, you are the worst. Seriously, I just had to express my feelings before diving into the real talk. To all the moms battling through this colic chaos, I see you, I respect you, and I can relate to the exhausting challenge of this phase because I’m right there with you.
My little angel, a true blessing, is now 14 weeks old. With her wild strawberry blonde mohawk and adorable chubby cheeks, she’s undeniably precious. But every night, without fail, she unleashes a torrent of tears that can last for hours, no matter what we do to soothe her. We’ve seen the pediatrician multiple times and have tried everything—Zantac, gas drops, soy formula, special colic-friendly bottles, and daily probiotics—but nothing seems to calm those intense evening cries.
And yes, we have all the gadgets: a Rock ‘n Play, two swings, a vibrating bouncer, a vibrating crib mattress, a music-filled play mat, tummy time mat, and a selection of baby wraps. My first child had maybe two baby items, but this one? She’s got it all. If anyone ever marketed a “colic-be-gone” product, I guarantee we would have Amazon Primed it in a frantic dash between 5 and 7 p.m.
Watching your tiny one cry for hours is absolutely draining. Eventually, you push your pediatrician to acknowledge the existence of colic, and you begin to accept the situation. Instead of desperately trying to “fix” her, you learn to ride the waves of her distress. You abandon the quest for the perfect bottle and stop googling “what’s wrong with my baby,” and you come to terms with the fact that, despite the noise, she is healthy and simply going through a phase. She will outgrow this.
But until that day comes, the guilt of being a colic mom weighs heavily. You find yourself questioning if you’ve expressed your love enough. You realize that conversations in your home have dwindled to whispers because of the crying, and you worry if you’ve stopped showering her with affection.
You might feel like you’re falling short in your role as a mother—wondering why you can’t calm her when she needs you most. You hope she doesn’t sense your relief when you finally lay her down or your disappointment when she wakes too soon from her nap.
Colic steals moments from you. You don’t get to bask in as many cute baby smiles as others do, and it feels like it’s taking forever for her to coo and giggle. Plus, you find it hard to spend time with your other children because you’re consumed by the crying.
Weeks go by as you wish for bedtime or for your partner to come home and share the load. You keep wishing for those precious moments to pass, which feels wrong since we’re constantly told to cherish every second. As if one day, we’ll yearn for these days again. Yeah, I’m not throwing any coins into that wish fountain.
You know what? I’m not going to carry the weight of a colicky baby and the accompanying mom guilt. Instead, I’ll remind myself that I’m doing my best to navigate this challenging chapter. I’m managing to keep everyone fed and clothed—even if pizza has become our go-to meal. I still hold and love my children, even if I need noise-canceling headphones to do it. And while I won’t be longing for these long days, I’ll take comfort in knowing that one day, I’ll share these stories with my daughter, especially when she’s deciding whether to send me to a nursing home.
For now, you’ll find me juggling a baby in one arm, a glass of wine in the other, and some heavy-duty earplugs firmly in place.
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In summary
Colic can be a grueling experience filled with guilt and frustration, but it’s important to remember that you’re doing your best. Embrace the challenges, find ways to cope, and know that this phase will pass.
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