Updated: November 16, 2016
Originally Published: November 16, 2016
For nearly a decade, I’ve been in a constant state of exhaustion. It’s hard to pinpoint exactly how long it’s been; the years have blurred together. Like many parents, I navigate daily life in a haze of sleep deprivation. It’s quite remarkable how we manage to function, isn’t it?
In the early days with newborns, fatigue is a given. Babies operate on their own schedules—our need for a full night’s sleep is irrelevant. We hold on to hope, thinking, “Once the baby sleeps through the night, I’ll feel revitalized!” Yet here I am, with my youngest now four, still waiting for that refreshing moment.
By 6:30 PM, I find myself yawning, but the list of tasks ahead—preparing dinner, tidying up, helping with homework, bathing the kids, and following the bedtime routine—makes the idea of going to bed early seem laughable. Through sheer will, I push past the fatigue to complete the necessary chores. As exhaustion hits, it’s too late for caffeine. By the time the kids are settled in their beds, dark circles under my eyes are practically their own entity. “Just go to bed,” my husband advises, as he effortlessly retreats to the bedroom and is snoring within minutes.
I can’t help but feel envious of his ability to “just” go to sleep, to switch off his mind and announce he’s heading to bed, while I remain incapable of doing the same. Each night, I tell myself, “Tonight, I will get some good rest!” However, as I approach the bedroom, a series of distractions inevitably arises, preventing me from heading to bed on time.
It usually unfolds like this:
- I ascend the stairs, planning to rest, but then I wonder if I locked the front door. So, I trek back down.
- On my way, I spot a pile of clothes on the bathroom floor that I overlooked while gathering laundry—of course, my family never uses the hamper. I take the clothes to the laundry room.
- Spotting my son’s favorite T-shirt reminds me he’ll need it tomorrow, so I start a load of laundry. “I’ll just pop it in and then head straight to bed,” I assure myself.
- I notice the dog’s water bowl is dry, so I refill it.
- Suddenly, a foul odor hits me. Oh no, it’s the trash! I can’t let that greet me in the morning, so I take it to the garage and replace the bag.
- While searching for trash bags, I remember I need to jot down a few grocery items, including a can of hair spray.
- And wait—didn’t the kids need canned food for school tomorrow? I rummage through the pantry, tossing in SpaghettiOs, clam chowder, and corn into their backpacks.
- While I have the backpacks open, I recall I still need to sign my son’s homework folder. Better do that now, or I’ll forget in the morning.
- As I place the backpacks by the front door, I remember to check the lock—wasn’t that why I came downstairs? Now, I’m really going to bed.
- But did I lock the back door?
- On my way to check that, I trip over a lone shoe and decide I should find its mate to avoid a morning scramble. Why can’t they just put their shoes in the right spot?
- In my search for the other shoe, I step on something sticky. I grab paper towels, which reminds me I need a new roll from the laundry room. As I’m there, I notice the washing machine has only 10 minutes left. I can find something to do for a few minutes and then dry the clothes before heading off to bed.
- I clean up the mess and decide to unload the dishwasher while I wait.
- While in the kitchen, I think it’s a good idea to prepare the kids’ lunches for tomorrow—after all, why not get a head start? The washer beeps, but I finish making sandwiches anyway.
- When I return to the dryer, I discover a load is already in there, wrinkling away. I can’t just leave it, especially since I spot one of my husband’s work shirts.
- After folding the laundry, I decide to lay out the kids’ outfits for school.
- At last, I’m really going to bed!
- Well, after brushing my teeth, washing my face, and applying wrinkle cream that promises to make me look refreshed.
Ironically, even in my fatigue, I often find myself wide awake once my head hits the pillow. “I’ll just check my email quickly,” I tell myself, which spirals into a rabbit hole of social media and quizzes like, “Which Disney Character Are You?” Meanwhile, my husband is next to me, snoring loudly as if he’s trying to eat the curtains, making it even harder for me to drift off.
Just as I begin to relax, I remember we received a notice about a late cable payment. Should I head back downstairs to check?
In summary, the struggle of a tired parent is real, with countless distractions and responsibilities preventing the simple act of going to bed. For those seeking further information regarding pregnancy or at-home insemination techniques, resources such as Mayo Clinic’s guide on intrauterine insemination and tips on fertility boosters for men are excellent. Additionally, if you’re interested in exploring home insemination options, check out our post on the home insemination kit.
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