Dear beloved ones,
I want to take a moment to express my deep love for each of you. My affection for you is unwavering, just as it is for your younger brother, Oliver, who has special needs and often requires a significant amount of my time and focus. I see the way you cherish him. The bond you share is beautiful and fills my heart with warmth. Whether it’s sharing snacks or playing games, your love for him shines through. His laughter, though quiet, is contagious, and his joy is evident in those bright eyes behind his glasses. You all see the wonder in him too.
I recognize that it can be frustrating at times. I often find myself repeating, “I need to assist Oliver right now,” or “I can’t join you; I have to stay with Oliver.” There was a time when I was the adventurous mom, hiking to scenic views and enjoying thrill rides at amusement parks. That version of me feels like a distant memory as I navigate the challenges of parenting a child who, at nearly three years old, is still learning to communicate his needs. And let’s not forget, he is quite the speedy little runner!
I am consistently striving to balance my attention among all of you. Can you see my efforts? Sometimes it’s not just about Oliver; there are moments when I simply want to engage in conversation with friends instead of witnessing yet another round of cartwheels. I’m still that mom, but I am also aware that each of you needs me in your own way.
When your father is away, I make it a priority to share my bed with one of you each night. We lay together, chatting about everything and nothing at all. I hear your questions about why we don’t dine out more often. Did you know we’ve been out together twice in the last two weeks? I made sure to arrange that for you. I’ve even found babysitters to ensure we can build sandcastles and enjoy the waves without interruptions. I want to be the mom you first knew and loved.
Motherhood is a challenging journey, and I am genuinely trying my best. I want you to know that my affection for you is vast — more than all the fish in the sea. I long to hold your hands, smooth back your hair, apply sunscreen to your noses, and pull you into warm embraces.
Please take a moment to acknowledge my efforts, and don’t hesitate to express when you need me, especially when I seem preoccupied. I know I have my shortcomings, particularly when it comes to managing my own time, but I promise to keep striving for better. Oliver may require special attention, but you three are the ones who have shaped my understanding of motherhood.
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In summary, being a parent is a complex, rewarding experience filled with challenges and love. I cherish each of you and strive to meet your needs alongside Oliver’s. Thank you for your understanding and support.
Keyphrase: “special needs parenting”
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