As I hurriedly exit the office, I feel the pressure of time bearing down on me. Being the last one out of the parking lot could cost me a few crucial minutes. With a 15-minute drive to the daycare, I mentally check off my list: uniform for my 5-year-old tee ball player? Check. Diaper bag for the baby? Check. Snacks for everyone? Check. Caffeine for me? Check. We’re ready to roll.
Upon arriving at the daycare center, I clutch the little cleats in my hand. They’re tight and a challenge to fit on his wiggly feet. After a flurry of pulling and stretching, both of us are slightly sweaty and wide-eyed. Honestly, since becoming a mother to these two boys, I often find myself in this wild state.
We grab the baby, who is determined to explore my mouth with his tiny fingers while repeating “mout.” After distributing chips and a sippy cup, I press the gas pedal and we’re off. Our conversation jumps from gym class to the wonders of boogers. I’m only half-listening, my mind drifting to the comfort of my couch and a backlog of shows waiting on my DVR. It’s already been a long day.
Suddenly, two ambulances race past, sirens blaring. My heart skips a beat, but then I hear my son say, “Mom, let’s pray for whoever is hurt.” His innocence and compassion shine through.
Time seems to slow as we pray for the injured. With an added plea for his little brother, the moment passes and our chatter shifts back to schoolyard tales.
As we pull into the baseball complex, I navigate the gravel parking lot. The baby is nestled in the stroller, while I drag the bat bag and diaper bag along. My little athlete bounces ahead, tossing his water bottle into the air, which catches the sunlight and casts a rainbow of colors onto his face. Just for a moment, I’m taken aback by his beauty—then he dashes off to join his friends, growing up before my eyes.
I feel like a pack mule as I make my way to the bleachers to watch the chaos that is tee ball. It’s only 5:45 p.m., but I feel as though I’ve expended hours of energy just to get here, five miles from home. I think about how nice it would be to be home, relaxing.
Sneaking candy from my purse while the baby babbles and tracks his brother, I watch the game unfold. The children wrestle and play, while coaches and parents shout last-minute instructions. The hour is a montage of joy and disappointment—injuries and triumphs on their small battlefield, where the red dirt is sacred ground.
As the game wraps up, the players scatter like frantic bumblebees. Parents herd them toward their cars, and we head home.
The evening turns into a whirlwind of dinner, baths, (attempted) homework, and finally bedtime. The baby’s chest rises and falls gently on my lap. My big boy, with damp hair sticking to his forehead, curls up next to me in his pajamas as I read a story. The child who looked so heroic on the field now appears sweet and small.
He drifts into slumber before I can finish the tale. I gaze at their peaceful faces, my heart swelling with love. The stress of the day begins to dissipate as I hold their tiny hands, both of them growing up right in front of me. Tears escape my eyes as I contemplate the future rushing toward us.
When my husband arrives home from his long shift, he notices my tear-streaked face. Raising an eyebrow, he gently asks, “Hey, honey. Are you alright? Did something happen?”
All I can respond with is, “I’m fine. I just can’t believe today is already over.”
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In summary, while each day may feel like a marathon of activities and emotions, moments of stillness and reflection remind us of the beauty in the chaos of parenting.
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