“Mom, your tummy is fat right there,” my daughter remarked, gently poking her tiny finger into my midsection. I glanced down, and a defensive response almost slipped out: “No, it’s not fat right there!” It felt like an assault on my body image, a reminder of the insecurities that still linger within me.
I took a breath and replied, “Oh?” trying to dismiss her comment as casually as if she had just shared that she played in the sandbox. But the truth was, her words stung.
Once, I would have let such a comment shatter me. Back then, I would look in the mirror and see a belly that I deemed too fat. I spiraled into unhealthy habits, obsessively counting calories until my weight plummeted to a mere 80 pounds. I skipped meals for days, and my self-worth became entangled in numbers and body image. Eventually, I pushed my body too far, and the consequences of anorexia took their toll.
Then came the joy of pregnancy, and as my body transformed to nurture life, I found solace in the softness of my belly; the marks of motherhood replaced my self-judgment. After giving birth, the weight lingered, but I stopped obsessing over it. I learned to cherish what my body had accomplished.
Now, however, as my daughter grows and begins to form her perceptions, my past insecurities resurface. When she poked my belly and uttered that word “fat,” I felt a wave of vulnerability wash over me. I thought I had moved past those feelings, but they resurfaced like a flood.
This moment is just the beginning; I know there will be many more. I need to prepare for the next time she notices, to respond differently, to teach her a healthier perspective. The next time she questions my body, I want to say, “No, my belly is not fat right there. It is a soft reminder of the amazing life I carried—your life, to be exact.” I want her to see that those pregnancy stretch marks are not imperfections but badges of honor, symbols of a powerful journey.
I want her to understand that my body is not defined by its size. It is resilient, it is beautiful, and so is hers.
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In summary, as I navigate parenthood, I am reminded that my journey with body image is ongoing. Embracing my body’s changes and teaching my daughter to love hers is essential. I hope to foster a positive body image for her, so she will see strength and beauty in herself and in me.
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