In recent times, we have witnessed a relentless campaign against women’s reproductive rights, which is deeply concerning. As a woman and a mother who has personally relied on these rights, I find this erosion alarming. Here’s why reproductive rights resonate with me: I am a mother who underwent a second-trimester abortion.
While residing in California, my husband, Mark, and I were thrilled to learn we were expecting our second child. Our son, Ethan, was just two years old, and we were eager to expand our family. Conceiving on our first attempt filled us with joy, especially after passing initial chromosomal screenings. We felt secure enough to share the exciting news—we were having another boy! Although I experienced some spotting, our first ultrasound indicated everything was progressing well. As a precaution, the doctor advised another ultrasound at 16 weeks. By then, the spotting had ceased, and I anticipated more good news.
However, the ultrasound revealed a different story. The technician’s silence during the examination was unsettling, and when the doctor entered, I was filled with hope. That hope was shattered as she expressed “serious concerns” about the pregnancy. I was taken aback and began to cry, struggling to comprehend the gravity of the situation.
The diagnosis was severe: bilateral multicystic dysplastic kidneys. This meant that neither of my unborn son’s kidneys had developed properly; they were merely cystic masses. Consequently, he was not producing any amniotic fluid, a critical component for healthy fetal development. I waited in vain for the doctor to offer solutions, but there were none.
While managing one cystic kidney can sometimes be viable, two is extremely rare (about 1 in 10,000 cases) and invariably fatal. Without functioning kidneys, my baby would not produce amniotic fluid, making lung development impossible. Our options were grim: we could terminate the pregnancy immediately, wait to see if it ended on its own, or carry the pregnancy to term, risking my health and watching my child suffer.
After much deliberation, Mark and I chose to end the pregnancy. We opted for a follow-up ultrasound to confirm our decision, and I am thankful we did. The images revealed kidneys resembling clusters of grapes, and there were no signs of a bladder or stomach. The deformed kidneys were so enlarged that they had displaced the heart. If the pregnancy continued, our child would not survive, and if he did, it would likely be a brief and painful existence. This was our first and final parenting decision for this child.
The emotional toll of waiting over a week for the next available hospital appointment for my dilation and evacuation (D&E) was overwhelming. I still felt pregnant, and each kick filled me with happiness and sorrow, reminding me that I would never meet my son.
During this emotionally charged time, a compassionate doctor said, “You should feel grateful to live in a state that allows you to make this choice.” It struck me then how fortunate I was; in other states, I might have faced additional barriers or been denied the ability to make this choice for my family. I could have been compelled to carry a nonviable pregnancy to term, risking my health and enduring untold emotional distress. The burden of watching my son suffer while trying to explain to Ethan why his brother was dying would have been unbearable.
At 18 weeks, we made the difficult decision to terminate the pregnancy and bid farewell to our son. Although I would never wish the experience of terminating a wanted pregnancy upon anyone, I am grateful to have lived in a state that permitted us to make this choice in a safe and dignified environment. This is why reproductive rights matter deeply to me.
For more information on pregnancy and reproductive health, consider visiting NICHD. If you are interested in exploring home insemination methods, check out this At-Home Intracervical Insemination Syringe Kit, a useful resource. Additionally, for those looking to boost fertility, look into this Fertility Booster for Men.
In summary, living in a state that supports strong reproductive rights has been a source of immense relief during a profoundly difficult time. The ability to make informed choices about my body and my family’s future is invaluable.
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