Dear Little One,
As you drifted off to sleep nestled in my arms today, I took a moment to hold you a bit tighter, inhaling that familiar scent that reminds me of how you’re still my little baby. In that quiet moment, I felt a wave of emotion. It wasn’t just the overwhelming love I have for you, but a deep sadness that I don’t always take the time to fully appreciate you.
I need to share something that’s been weighing on my heart: I had more moments like these with your older brother, Liam. When he was your age, life moved at a slower pace, and I could focus solely on him. I wish I could give you the same undivided attention.
I want you to know how deeply I care for you, and I’m aware that you will forgive me even before I express my regrets.
I’m sorry that our lives are so hectic, that we often have to wake up before you’re ready for cuddles, and that breakfast often feels rushed. I apologize for the chaos of getting everyone dressed while you’re still lost in your superhero adventures.
I regret that you have to hear me plead with Liam to gather his lunch for the umpteenth time, and I’m sorry for the noise of disagreements about “big kid” responsibilities.
Every morning, I feel the weight of rushing you to school when I know you would rather take your time. I apologize for spending so much time on calls and emails when I wish I could be playing with you instead.
I’m sorry for being strict about naptime and then waking you too soon just to pick up Liam. I know your clothes are mostly hand-me-downs, and many of your toys and books were once his. Sometimes, I even bribe you with candy to make our school runs easier (though I suspect you don’t mind the candy!).
I regret that your baby book remains mostly blank and that I often say, “just a minute,” when you ask me to join in play. I’m sorry you’ve had to witness me help Liam with his homework too.
But through all of this, I want you to remember that my heart has ample space for both you and Liam. Our lives may be busy, but they are filled with love and joy, and that is how it should be.
I cherish every laugh and every moment spent painting or watching the caterpillars in the yard together. You may sometimes feel overshadowed by those around you, but I recognize the wonder you bring to our lives.
I hope I show you enough how truly special you are, how much joy you infuse into our family, and how I treasure those moments when you fall asleep in my arms. I hold on to your babyhood tightly because I know how fleeting it is. While I will let you grow up, you will always be my baby.
With all my love,
Mommy