“I know! It’s so mortifying,” I overheard my 9-year-old, Max, exclaim to his 6-year-old twin brothers.
“What’s so mortifying?” I inquired as I walked into the cluttered playroom where they were deep into building with Legos.
“This!” Max said, waving his hand in a sweeping motion that seemed to take in the entire space. “This playroom. It’s full of baby things!” The twins nodded in fervent agreement. “These pictures are just so strange! Plus, they’re just taped to the walls,” Max complained, pointing to the charming creations that he and his brothers had made over the years at home, preschool, and elementary school.
I paused, stepping back to truly absorb the room.
The walls were adorned with toy soldiers, watercolor gingerbread men crafted during Christmas, and hearts glued to paper, where “All the Reasons We Love Mommy” were lovingly inscribed for Valentine’s Day. There were leprechaun puppets made from paper bags with orange yarn for hair and cheerful daisies featuring the smiling faces of my twins attached to green pipe cleaner stems. A life-sized outline of Max from when he was just four years old graced the wall, along with the “All About Me” posters for each of my three boys, which we had painstakingly created when they entered kindergarten.
Max has certainly seen how other parents curate their children’s playrooms. They possess the creativity, energy, and inspiration to frame their kids’ artwork, arrange them in cute shadow boxes, and craft beautiful gallery walls that showcase these masterpieces.
When our playroom first came into being, I was still recovering from the chaos of new motherhood. My husband and I had moved with our 3-year-old son and newborn twins to our freshly built home while I was still healing from a C-section. My in-laws kindly unpacked boxes, organized the kitchen, and arranged our furniture. Meanwhile, I sat and cared for one baby or the other, or both, completely uninterested in the layout of my new space. My focus was solely on minimizing the crying—both theirs and mine.
For the next three years, my husband and I navigated the challenges of parenthood, and I felt accomplished if I could squeeze in some playtime amidst feeding, diapering, and putting the kids down for naps or bedtime. Did I sometimes glance around my home, comparing it to others and noticing the glaring organizational, feminine, and artistic touches that were absent in mine? Absolutely. But instead of summoning my nonexistent Martha Stewart energy at the end of each day, I would unwind with a glass of wine, watch something mindless on TV with my husband, and fall asleep by 10 p.m. to avoid feeling completely drained by morning.
Consequently, our home remained largely undecorated and unpainted, save for one room: the playroom. The haphazard, chaotic, and, yes, embarrassing playroom. I took pleasure in every bit of my kids’ creations, even if it was merely a splash of paint on a torn piece of paper. Armed with Scotch tape, I would find a spot on the stark white wall to display their artwork. These efforts, though imperfect, were the best I could manage as a weary, un-crafty mom.
Now that my kids are 9, 6, and 6, much has changed. My home’s interior still isn’t painted, but there are far more decorative elements than during those early years. Since finishing the basement, the kids rarely venture into the playroom, yet I still faithfully tape their school artwork to its bare walls.
As I surveyed the playroom, trying to view it through the eyes of my children—those who found it embarrassing—I realized I was merely a tired, imperfect, and spontaneous mother. A mother who tends to boo-boos, reads stories, pushes swings, attends baseball games, calms fears, helps with homework, prepares meals, hosts playdates, and orchestrates birthday celebrations. After all of this, I could certainly berate myself for not creating a home that looks like a Pottery Barn catalog. Still, I choose to prioritize my own well-being at the end of the day. Ultimately, once my kids have what they need to thrive, I channel my remaining energy into making sure they know I am proud of them.
Taking a deep breath, I began to peel away the taped edges of a rainbow fish from the wall. I wasn’t sure how long it would take to transform this space into something less embarrassing or even if I would have the energy for it. The fish, half-flapping off the wall, seemed to accuse me with its unevenly glued sequined eye. I returned its gaze and thought, This is going to hurt me more than it hurts you.
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In summary, this reflection on motherhood captures the essence of juggling responsibilities while embracing imperfections. As we navigate the complexities of parenting, it’s essential to focus on nurturing our children and maintaining our own well-being, even if it means embracing a playroom that might not fit conventional standards of decor.
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