Dear Little One,
As I reach the 28-and-a-half-week mark in my pregnancy, I am struck by how quickly time has passed. I can feel your strength growing within me, and at this very moment, you are kicking. It’s a surreal thought to realize how close we are to the end of this journey, a journey that has been relatively smooth for me—no morning sickness, minimal discomfort, and, in my opinion, very little moodiness! It’s only in the past few weeks that people have begun to inquire about you. Although I feel as if I am expanding and my friends notice my growing belly, I know my experience has been mild compared to many others.
However, I must confess something important. Despite carrying you for this long, I do not yet feel a strong bond with you. This is not to say that I don’t love you; the love I experience is akin to the compassion I feel for a stranger in need. It’s disheartening because you are not a stranger to me. I can predict your movements, knowing you’ll kick the heart monitor or hide from it. You tend to be most active around 11 p.m. and when I first lay on my side, and I can anticipate those mornings when you seem to be churning my insides.
When I reflect on our relationship, I acknowledge that you are indeed my daughter, yet I don’t truly know you yet. I am confident that everything will change the moment I can see your face and hear your cries. I anticipate that I will feel an immediate connection then. Imagining what you might look like after birth stirs the same emotions I reserve for those I hold dear. However, right now, it feels as though you are merely a passenger in my daily life, and for that, I apologize, especially for the stress you’ve experienced alongside me.
Let me clarify: I am terrified of losing you. The fear of “What if something happens to the baby?” has never loomed larger in my life. Upon further reflection, I realize my greatest fear is that I may never have the chance to truly know you. This understanding reassures me that this phase is temporary and will culminate on your birthday.
So, why am I expressing my lack of bond with you in this letter, even though I fully expect that to change? Sweet baby, it’s something that is often left unspoken.
In today’s world of social media, there is an abundance of shared experiences about the joys of pregnancy, as well as its challenges. However, I have noticed that none of my peers have openly discussed the feeling of disconnect from their unborn child. It’s simply not a common topic for discussion. Yet, many women encounter this phenomenon during pregnancy. A quick search will yield numerous self-help articles with suggestions for enhancing the connection with your unborn baby. You can also find stories from women who felt the same way and found that their emotional connection blossomed immediately post-birth. Nonetheless, for those of us who struggle to bond during pregnancy, seeing the endless posts from excited mothers can lead to feelings of inadequacy. Questions arise: “Is something wrong with me?” “Why don’t I feel as in love as others seem to?” “Am I supposed to feel an instant connection at the first ultrasound? What does it mean if I don’t?”
I may not fit the stereotype of a mother who lacks a bond with her unborn child, but here I am. It’s essential to acknowledge that if you ever find yourself in this position, know that you are not alone. This feeling is temporary, and it does not make you a bad mother.
Sweet baby, I eagerly await the day when our bond truly forms.
With love,
Mommy
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In summary, it’s completely normal to not feel an instant bond with your unborn child during pregnancy. It’s a complex journey, and many women experience similar feelings. Recognizing that this phase is temporary can offer comfort, and the emotional connection often develops upon the birth of your baby.
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