In anticipation of the month when my two eldest daughters would be away at summer camp, I compiled a comprehensive list of tasks I aimed to accomplish during their absence. This list encompasses ambitious objectives—like decluttering the garage, donating clothes that have long been neglected, and tackling the elusive vacuuming under the furniture. It also includes more personal aspirations, such as taking daily walks, finally finishing a novel that has occupied my nightstand for the past two months, and indulging in a much-deserved facial. This summer to-do list reflects the activities that I neglected during the busy school year, the spring cleaning that never materialized, and the self-care intentions I frequently set to create more space in my life.
Now, two weeks into their absence, I have completed some items on my list, but one unexpected activity has become a daily occurrence: wandering around the house in the nude.
For those accustomed to leisurely strolling through their homes without clothing, this may seem trivial, even unworthy of a to-do list. Yet, for others, the absence of children presents a unique opportunity to embrace nudity more freely. For me, being naked has never been a habitual choice, but here I find myself, undressed while doing laundry, casually heading downstairs for a refreshing Diet Coke and a handful of pretzels, and lying on my bed scrolling through social media—all without a stitch of clothing.
What Has Prompted This Behavior?
With three children and a husband frequently moving in and out of shared spaces, moments of solitude are rare. Our home was not designed with locks on the interior doors, leaving me exposed to my husband’s scrutinizing gaze, the inquisitive stares of my pre-teen and teenage daughters, and the innocent, albeit blunt, remarks from my youngest, such as, “You have a squishy tummy, Mama!” Despite my attempts to establish boundaries, they often burst in with an apologetic, “Oh, sorry Mom,” followed by a request. While I cherish their company, it leaves little time for me to enjoy moments of tranquility with my naked self. Now, with the house to myself, I’m discovering what I have been missing.
I’ve developed a newfound appreciation for my body in my mid-40s, which has undeniably changed since my 20s and early 30s—before marriage and motherhood. In those earlier years, my skin was firmer, and I was constantly preoccupied with my appearance. I was always striving to lose weight or tone my body, concerned about fitting in with the slender women around me. I often questioned whether my naked body would be deemed acceptable by a potential partner, let alone myself.
Today, I find myself viewing my naked body with a sense of gratitude and self-acceptance. I recognize what my body has accomplished, the journeys it has taken, its limitations, and its remarkable resilience. My body has completed a marathon, participated in tennis tournaments, and excelled in swimming competitions. It has hiked the Pacific Crest Trail for three weeks and climbed Mount Washington during late August snow. While I’ve attempted snowboarding and skiing, I ultimately gravitate toward ice-skating. Through years of step classes and yoga, my body has remained active, even after enduring the challenges of pregnancy and healing from a miscarriage. Although I still catalog the changes—freckles, scars, wrinkles, and stretch marks—the focus is now on appreciation rather than criticism. I genuinely like the way I look, but more importantly, I value how I feel.
With two weeks remaining before my household returns to its boisterous state, I intend to relish my time in the nude. I will finish that novel, consider indulging in a facial, and contemplate cleaning out the garage. Additionally, I’ve added another task to my list: contacting a locksmith for added privacy.
Conclusion
In summary, this summer offers a unique opportunity to reconnect with oneself and embrace body positivity in a space that feels safe and private. For those interested in furthering their understanding of home insemination, resources such as ACOG provide excellent information, and if you’re considering self-insemination, check out the BabyMaker and the At-Home Insemination Kit, which can offer invaluable assistance in your journey.
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