As part of my nightly routine, I put my children to bed and then retreat to the bathroom to cleanse my face. This time in front of the mirror serves as an opportunity to embrace the reality of my 40s. I remind myself that examining the new lines on my face and the more pronounced pores is an act of self-care, not self-criticism. I’m not lamenting the passage of time; rather, I’m taking a moment to familiarize myself with my evolving reflection. I groom my eyebrows, apply toner to my neck, and brush my teeth thoroughly.
One evening, while washing my face, my daughter Emily quietly entered the bathroom.
“I just need to blow my nose,” she whispered.
“Sure,” I replied, my voice muffled as I splashed water on my face. As I massaged the soap into my cheeks, I heard her soft sniffles, which brought a smile to my face. I had waited so long for her to master blowing her own nose. After rinsing my face and drying it off, I noticed that she was holding the tissue to her face—not to clear her nose, but to conceal her curious gaze as she observed me. It dawned on me that her presence was fueled by genuine interest—not just in my routine, but in the world around her. I stood tall, and she offered a shy smile.
This summer marked a shift in her demeanor as she embarked on a quest for understanding. Standing in the bathroom, I felt uncertain, aware that I had become the latest subject of her curiosity. Dressed in a soft cotton nightgown, I felt vulnerable under her watchful eyes, evoking remnants of my insecurities from my younger years. As a mother of three daughters, I constantly grapple with the urge to maintain a polished appearance while ensuring that my daughters do not feel the weight of such expectations—thinner, prettier, more organized.
“Why do you do that?” she asked, pointing to my skincare routine.
“Do what?” I replied.
“Everything.”
Taking a deep breath, I contemplated my response, realizing she had likely noticed my struggle between relaxation and tension. “I suppose it’s a treat for myself; it helps me unwind,” I explained.
“Why do you want to slow down?” she queried, her brow furrowing.
“Well, you know how I sometimes tell you to hurry up and other times to take your time?” She nodded thoughtfully. “Most of the time, I remind myself to slow down. When I come in here at night, it’s like having a blank canvas to jot down my thoughts or create something new,” I continued with a grin. “I do this so I can wash off the chaos of the day and find my pace before bed.”
“But why does it take so long?” she pressed, her determination echoing her past attempts to master complex crafts.
“Um, I guess it just does. I’m not always the best at letting things go or finding the right rhythm,” I shrugged.
“I think your face looks nice when it’s shiny and pink after washing. And you smell good,” she said, moving closer to hug me. I placed my head on top of hers, noticing how much shorter the distance between us had become. She squeezed me tightly and stepped back, “When you’re done, can you rub my forehead until I fall asleep?”
We exchanged smiles. “Of course, I’ll be right in,” I assured her. She nodded and tossed her tissue in the trash.
“Oh, and Mom, I really love your nightgown,” she added before skipping away, her colorful outfit trailing like ribbons behind her.
In that moment, I realized that both Emily and I navigate our lives with ever-changing perspectives. While a microscope may not always clarify our vision, it occasionally connects insights, revealing new layers of understanding about ourselves and each other.
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In summary, navigating the complexities of self-care and parenting requires introspection and understanding. By embracing our routines and sharing them with our children, we foster a deeper connection that allows us to grow together.
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